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The Real Me

We've got a new sofa!
It came yesterday, looking like this...



and Simon (hero) spent the evening constructing it, so that it now looks like this...



and that's the end of the story - nice shiny clean new perfect sofa. That's the sofa I want people to see.

But what they are seeing right now, as it sits outside our house waiting for the council to pick up is this...!!!!



Yes, the old sofa - the 17 year old sofa. The sofa that has tears and rips and stains. The sofa that I have kept covered by draping with Zambian fabrics. I don't want peope to see the "real sofa". I just want them to see my version of it!
I opened my bedroom blinds this morning, gasped when I saw the sofa in all its glory; and felt a God whisper. You see, even outside our house I'd have tried to hide the imperfections ; I'd have turned the cushions round. I don't want people to see things how they really are, I want them to see my version of how things really are.
I know that God is speaking to me about humility, vulnerability and trust this year - guess what? He uses all sorts of things to grab my attention! What's He saying to you today?

Comments

Rosalind said…
Brilliant! When I read this - I heard a real Karena raucous laugh. May God bless you for being so totally human and vulnerable and for showing us both those sofas. That has made my day!
irene m said…
Yeah...I would be the same Catrina...good post...
Catrina Benham said…
Thanks Rosalind, Esther and Irene - it was a day-long test for me, to leave the sofa as it was until it was collected, and not cover it up! I'm glad it made you laugh! x

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